so it turns out that there is something to this whole PMA (positive mental attitude) thing. I like it. Also, let me add that Paris is beginning to feel like home. Weird cause I was in a mega hate rampage here for the past few months. I think being broke had a lot to do with it, let me add hungry to that as well. Life is pretty interesting and watching my reactions to things makes all the difference. NO lie. I don’t mean to get all Buddha on everyone but seriously, it’s real, true story. It’s helping me a lot in my relationship to life, others and myself. I’m no saint now, let’s be clear about that but I am changing, growing and the quality of my relationships is really taking on whole new dynamics and quality. I longed for this for so long. I’m smart enough to know that it will get hard again I’m sure but the way I respond to it will hopefully forever be changed.